this is MY LIFE..
STAY ONLI if u care..
GET LOST if u dun..
basically thats ME!!!
this is MY LIFE..
STAY ONLI if u care..
GET LOST if u dun..
basically thats ME!!!
reading thru my past entries..realise that almost every entry reflects me skipping lessons...think i had enough..someone asked "why u always skip lesson?"de qns hit me...i have totally no idea why i always skip lesson..think coz i have lose interest in studies...maybe...but thinking again..in Singapore...without a diploma is total useless..haiz...think i shall make a decision to realli go for every single lessons faithfully...and it is no use putting in so much effort for CO..though to me CO is still impt..but think it is time to let it be the 2nd...studies shall be the 1st..think i have enuf of fun..shld realli settle dwn, forget abt everything..and start workin hard..get a diploma and i shall be free to do whatever i wan...think i have waste enough of my time during my secondary sch life..and now oso..repeating a module..duHx..think next 2 wk i will have to bury myself deep deep into the books..having 4 test within 2wks..every wed n thurs... haiz..i realli regret goin DCP..though it is my choice..but thinkin back..i never think that i deserve a place in there..i am not someone who is damn smart..i onli chiong during the O lvls juz to get myself a gd place in DCP..shld have go for other courses..instead of life sciences..since primary sch...i failed science..goin to secondary..i juz pass onli..duhX.....whatever...think i will have to work hard ba...with regards with my clz issue..it seems that there is some unhappiness..the 4 of them were being so call boycott...yesh.. i do pity them at times..but still i dun like their attitude at times...Xing...i am not refering to u..but the other 3...during the talk we had in msn that day...frankly speaking i am upset..have u thought of this b4...who are those that help u when u are in need..who are those that hear u out when u have troubles..who are those that help u collect notes when u arent ard..who are those that ask u where are u when u wasnt in clz..i cant 100% say that i am de one that help, hear, ask...and i oso cant 100% say that they didnt..but frm what i see..frm what we see....they did nth much...yes..to u, she might be a veri gd fren..de main reason why u always have this thought..i personally think that u are putting urself in a veri diff position.... remember hw she treat u during that "squash guy" thing?!sorry if i sound veri bad..but to me..frm what i see..she is nth but a fcukin bitch to me...sorry that i am so crude in my language..but i had enuf of her doings..for me, i think that u are already too into them..JL and i cant 100% say that we are correct..but at least we are those seeing everything.... we have eyes to see what is happening..i dun see any happiness in u when u are with them...yes.. like what u say.. everyone is different..to me... why u are with them nw...is coz they are the first few frenz u made in SP..and they are those that u treasure...i am not trying to ask u to get away frm them..it is ur own individual choice to make friends..i cant force u into mixing with my clique of ppl...and likewise...it is diff for us to mix with them..and i am meaning nt to the certain sense of forever clickin together..but at least at times still can communicate..to me...i realli find it hard to communicate with them..realli....maybe the frequency i had is never the same as them....and with regards of victor's issue..personally..if i am u...i will nt care a damn abt him..and to me...personally..if i am him..i will do the same actually..if i dun like this person..i sure will show attitude..i will never put a fake front..as regard u thinkin that he dun like u...rest assured..he told me b4...he nv nt happy with u..but de rest of de 3..as regard the tutorial thingy...i asked ard..and the ans i gt is ppl ask him to print..and u nv asked him to print..and thats why he never print for u..sorry if i sound realli bad here..ask and u shall be given...but u did nt ask..and oso...dun get so upset when he show u attitude..and think that u are nt the one that he nt happy with...and why on earth is he still giving u attitude..for me..why u have the impression that he is giving u attitude..mainly is because u are with de other 3 of them...but why do u care so much on whether does he give u attitude..it is realli diff to try and get the best out of the 2 grps..for me.. it is oso diff to get the best out of my 2 grp of CO frenx...thinking too much is gd at times..but it is rather bad oso....dun get upset coz of these things..coz these things are juz nothing..the more u wanna care abt everything.the more miserable u will be..but...why is they nt veri happy with the 3 of them...to me.. is still their attitude...but to u.... it is ok...and is jux pure misunderstanding..but have u ever thought..why is there this misunderstanding...remember i told u the way they talk is veri unkind...yes... the way JL they all talk might be unkind oso..but they know their limits..they know when to stop..they know hw to apologise when they sense the other party's unhappiness..or even b4 that party felt offended..but to me..the 3 of them never have their limits..coz within themselves.. they find it okay..but to others..it might nt be......ya..think i shall stop rattling anymore....
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